How many times have you had a thought and asked, "Okay.... was that me, God or the devil?" It has taken me a while to learn the difference between to the three. Before learning the difference, I would have a thought or a desire I wanted to act on regardless of what God had to say about it. I would even make God jump on board after the ship left the dock. You know what I'm talking about! Have you ever said, "God if we are meant to be together he will commit to me or God if you want me to leave this job they will fire me." Maybe that's just me.... I have been in relationships God did not approve of, and I have stayed at jobs longer than I was suppose because I was "afraid of the unknown" not realizing that I put more trust in myself than I did in God.
1. IGNORING THE SILENCE
Do you want to know when I finally figured out God was telling me NO? It was when He would not say anything at all. No response. Dead silence. Don't confuse God's silence for His lack of presence. He hears you, but He does not respond. We are so used to receiving an answer for every question we ask that we expect to get a reaction from God. I can remember asking my mom a question and she would just look at me like, "Why are you asking a question you already know the answer to?" She was teaching me how to think and use wisdom.
Wisdom: the quality of having experience, knowledge, and good judgement; the quality of being wise
I knew to do the right thing, but I wanted to do what I wanted to do and hoped that God would jump on board. My actions reminded me of Abram, Sarai, and Hagar. God told Abram and Sarai that they would have a child, but Sarai had a hard time believing that it would come from her womb. Sarai eventually told Abram to sleep with her handmaid Hagar so that Abram could have a child. God tends to tell us the promise without the process. I don't know about you, but my mind begins to wonder, and I start planning the process...A-Z! Faith without works is dead, but is your work aligned with God's will?
2. EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY
So, they put the plan into action without God's permission. Sarai and Abram's "Yes" brought out anger, bitterness, jealousy, and dissension (Galatians 5:19-21). Has your "Yes" led to you experiencing any if not all these emotions? This is another sign that God has not agreed with your "Yes". Sarai's misused her authority and gave chaos permission to dwell in her home. Have you allowed your brokenness to wreak havoc in your life? What emotions have you given permission to rule your life or your decision making?
Instead of Sarai admitting she played a major role in creating the dissension, she chose to play victim. "I was despised and looked on with disrespect May the Lord judge (who has done right) between you and me." (Genesis 16:5) Okay Sarai! I see you ma'am! Now you want to bring the Lord into this? I am guilty of pulling this move. Lol God is on MY side! He will never leave me nor forsake me.... right? We must be careful when trying to put God in the middle of our mess, just so we can have a peace of mind about disturbing the pieces He was trying to put together before we jacked everything up. When God is silent we go into panic mode which causes us to make irrational decisions.
Many of us have reacted like Sarai because we think we won't have a enough time to complete what God has promised. Sarai was past child bearing age, so her concern was reasonable to the human eye, but God is the creator of time and he proved this to be true in the later chapters of Genesis. He made Sarai turned Sarah wait yet again before God fulfilled his promise. I pray that you learn to be still, be patient, and be obedient when your humanly desires are telling you Yes, but God is saying NO! If you have an encouraging word or a question another GIRL is afraid to ask leave it down below.